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  God, I'm so weird, I even surprise myself with the depths of my neuroses. One of those has been dicking around in music since I took up the trumpet in the fifth grade, continuing the line of trumpet-playing Gonzales males three generations deep. Around seventh grade, I exchanged my trumpet for an electric bass at the behest of the middle school music teacher who needed a rhythm section for the jazz band. In school, I used my bass to play Gimmie Some Lovin' while outside the institution, I used it as my ticket into the all-important rite of passage: the teenage angst band. Later, I borrowed the Acid Pro Installation DVD from my friend Ty and started loops-based fuckery with the
  Nine Inch Nails remix album Things Fall Apart. Then, I guess, it became a habit or an addiction, depending on where you draw the line between the two. It certainly gives me a high of sorts, especially now, having hundreds of tracks connected to over a decade of memories is basically like keeping a diary for a person like me who writes a lot in my everyday life as it is. Better than a diary, I can keep and work on songs for years,
  revisiting and tweaking the memory, chaining similar experiences together like the smell of bacon recalls a thousand mornings.
  
  Spending this summer bouncing between freelance jobs and the NYS Department of Labor for my living expenses, there was financial benefit in staying home, resurrecting old things and going through the process of refining them, or at least playing around with them to see what, if anything, made them worthy pursuits. PANDA was among them.
  
  I started working on PANDA in August 2012, right after releasing another album - Rasterize - in three different “Versions” each with a slightly different track listing. That’s evidence of having too much stuff I felt was done at the time and no unifying message to tie them all under. I had other finished tracks, so I roped them together into a short EP called “PANDA,” because as the black and white bear it is the counterpoint to my red and blue BipolarBear. But instead of release it, I sat on it and put the few tracks I had out as singles. A year later I found it and knew a bit more about mixing and had awesome, new Bose headphones. I jumped into a collection of songs recorded between September 2007 and July 2013. Without tweaking much of anything, I spent time mixing them. I’ve always loved percussion, but sometimes at the detriment of the other frequencies that could have been aurally exploited. I’ve always liked the sequencer, but hadn’t allowed it to drunkenly sway around the melody. I’d used synths, but never allowed them to bleed into everything, wrapping it in a warm blanket. I’d used live instruments, but got them to dance on that line with the distorted synths.
  
  I don’t think all my experiments succeed, especially since I was working with old files. Some of the lyric work is pretty sloppy, but I can’t claim I didn’t write it and believe in it enough to perform it at one time or another in the past 6 years. That’s from 23-29. Think of all the opinions you had and changed in that time period in your life. I’d like to think that idea is echoed in the cover design of a young me with clear tape covering my face as a cut out against a grey Times Square, but I designed that cover long before I knew what songs would be on PANDA. I just thought the image of me making a mask out of tape as a kid was particularly telling. Is it psychological foreshadowing, a cry for attention or just something a bored kid does when left alone with the tape? I’m such a weirdo. ... more
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